Lately I'm doing nothing. Well, mostly rough sketches, when I don't feel like shit and my muse comes to say hi.
My tweenties are definetly not going to be my best years in my memories, and those before that, where worst. I'm hoping to see a major glory in my life in my thirties, maybe.
I'm reading A LOT. Every book I have, every fanfic of Garret and Fenris from DAII. Drawing a lot my OC Minerva, my dalish inquisitor from DAI. And writting more or less my feelings in docs and some fragments of stories for my blog.
I'm not feeling really well since january, but lately It's worst. My inspiration have became very rebel and my hands rarely wants to draw, even If I hold a pencil in my fingers. They feel heavy, without soul.
But I'm taking this breath, this happy moments when you read something so fucking good that you can feel some kind of electric wave within you that nothing more is important and all the rest is worthless. And then you want to be alone and be happy in those moments. Trying to avoid the suffering, the bad thoughts, the bad persons, the poisonous friends. The nostalgic...
I'm really trying, I'm calling my light, finding some kind of peace. I was in peace more or less this latest year, when my father died I was with friends who cared for me. Now its different, and my life is still trying to adjust. Because when I'm that happy, when I think all is alright, then someone tells you something. That feeling in your stomach grows and you feel empty. Really empty.
But all you can do is to live, to fill you again with something you care, something you like, something that maybe inspires you enough.
And I found Dragon Age. And I found FenHawke. And I found Pablo Neruda again, reading my books of poetry. And I found me drawing again with pencils, just because I need to feel the paper under my skin. And I found that I don't care anymore of what people says. I'm tired of everything. And I fill the void that grows in my stomach with all the love I can find in those little things.
So, yeah, If you wanna see some drawings, sketches. You can find me in
Nice to meet you and congrats if you read all this.